I’ve been wanting to start a blog for a while now & never made it a point to, or I started, wrote one post and now it’s in an internet graveyard (RIP) but new things have happened in my life and I want some sort of way to document them. I also promised myself that I would try something new in 2015.
I’ve often found myself unhappy well…with my own self. It’s frustrating to know your own potential and yet not find that motivation and push within yourself to do the things you dream so much of doing. Honestly, I really have no one to blame but me. I guess you could say that I’m having a premature quarter life crisis. My mind is full of dreams and self doubt. I’m still not entirely sure what I’d like to do with the rest of my life. I mean, I know I would like to be happy and feel fulfilled and help others do the same but I haven’t worked out how exactly I’m going to do that. I’m 23, almost 24 I really thought I’d have this shit figured out! I’m certainly not where I thought I would be in high school. Now I feel even more pressure as a newlywed. I struggle with who I am as a woman and now I have to figure out who I am as a wife!
Did I miss some womanhood meeting (wouldn’t surprise me) or are some of you just really good at pretending?! (if so, tell me your secrets!)
So I’d like to brand this a safe, open space, a space to share your biggest dreams and deepest fears. A space to rejoice in victories and find comfort in failures. A space to experiment, play, laugh and grow.
I don’t know if anyone else will ever read this, but if nothing else, this space is for me.